running without growing weary?

So do you run?

I do. And that "I do" is definitely because of the "I do" that locked me into a covenant love with my triathlete husband. Long ago and far away I was one unhealthy dame. With smoke stained lungs I embraced running about 16 years ago. I never thought I would heal let alone enjoy a long run. I did heal - and I do love running. However - AND i do mean HOWEVER - when I have not run for awhile - even a few days - it is amazing how quickly what I had already accomplished in stamina and distance - diminishes. When I do not maintain - DAILY - stride and pace and distance - I quickly plummet in my running ability...which is not THAT great to begin with - but still - every little bit helps, right?

So where am I goin' with this? Let me tell ya...Tear jerker with our amazing God that I have to share with you - or I'll BURST! He is so so so so great, THIS GOD of ours! He is the one who heals, sustains, - and who is the banner under which we run!

I have begun to pursue a Master's degree in Theological studies. My husband and I have prayed long and hard over this pursuit. It's life changing. I had thought I would return to the English teaching realm. I even considered going for a PhD. in English Education - I met with my ol' professor and everything - but God continued to impress upon my heart that the desire He that has given me - is for His Word. MY HEART LONGING is for women to embrace His Word. The English classroom could never satisfy that God given ache. And no amount of money could either. So - we're investing in this degree and this call that God confirmed in some very cool ways - (another blog another day) - and we are trusting Him to flip the bill and sustain us along the way. (Our God owns the cattle on a thousand hills Psalm 50:10 - and He owns the hills too!)

I went for a run Tuesday morning, after spending some time with Jesus in His Word...I was processing all I was taking on with this degree- and all that I hoped to accomplish - and being wife, mom, our home, Vintage, Mom2Mom, working on our book (publisher waiting on ME!)... My greatest concern: can I do it?

Now mind you - in the midst of so much life goin' on this summer, I have not run a great deal. My distance and speed have suffered. Trying to increase both, I have felt like I was lumbering - but I continued to do intervals and press toward what I knew I had once been able to accomplish in my Asics. (If you're a runner - you know that you always wonder is the point of struggle is the graveyard gate for your running days. Ya know? I hate that thought!) So this run was going to be about maintaing speed ...not an interval run. I just wanted to see if I could pace consistently and feel stronger while doing it.

I started out and was initially pleased. I didn't feel so slow. I wasn't breathing as hard...NOTHING hurt. I pressed on. My mind left the road and went to the work that I would have to do that day. Reading. Paper. Cooking. Laundry. How would I write this paper? Thought upon thought. However as I ran, and noticed I wasn't lumbering - I kept interrupting my list of "to do's" with the realization of "I'm doing it! I'm running faster!" - and my heart was pumping steadily, not hard. I'm was not winded. I could go faster! I was amazed! I didn't want to think about it too much in case it would stop. You know that feeling? But I couldn't help it! I was actually smiling when I was running! I was almost giddy.

I thought to myself  about how I was actually afraid to keep going because it might start to hurt. I thought -maybe I should slow down and baby myself so I don't find out I really can't do it. That thought was quickly pummeled by my former hard core running partner/mentor - whispering in my memory "You'll be amazed by what your body really can do." So I kept it up...and as I was running at this pace, and in the midst of this distance and speed I heard a verse...over my breathing - over my own thoughts.

"They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31. Immediately my mind went from the run to the issue that God knows is on my heart.  He was directing my thoughts and I was listening. I can accomplish what He has trained me to do. It may scare me. I may hurt. But I can do it - running without growing weary, and walking when I can slow down - without passing out from the heart pounding pace I have just been at, and without going the distance ALONE. Everything that I had just considered about my physical run - was redefined spiritually for me in light of Isaiah 40:31.

I have not been in school for awhile. I will get the hang of it again. The reading and writing amounts - (distance) and the speed at which I do it - will improve as I continue in it - training and disciplining myself to keep at it daily. I will be able to accomplish what I have set my heart and mind to do - not because I love it, - even though I do! - but because this is the reason for the Healing, Provision and Banner over my life.

Tears. God teaches us so beautifully, doesn't He? He uses everything and anything in our day to speak to us. The beauty of it is that HIS WORD is attached to it. His truth pervades everything when we have hidden it in our hearts.

I won't be afraid of the work. I won't be afraid of the pace. I will be confident in my Coach - my Running Partner's Word to my soul.

We're going to make it. Hold on. We're going to make it. You are not alone.

How 'bout you? You clippin' at a pace that seems too hard, too fast. Talk to our Daddy. He will show you not only the path, and the direction to take on it - Psalm 119 -He'll give you the strength to finish the journey.
GAME ON!

LOVIN' this Jesus life with you! Lovin' it!!!

ahhh...manit'sgood!...
and now...you guessed it. I'm off to....rrrr...read.

Arrival Time

The Olympics fascinate me. Absolutely incredulous when I see the moment of triumph for these athletes who have endured so much and come so far! How 'bout the US women's gymnastic team? Come on with that! Spectacular!

Have you seen the Proctor and Gamble Olympic moms commercial? (click here!) Such a tear jerker for me!

Olympian mothers, having endure the years of training trials, alight upon the most significant athletic precipice her child will ever know.  The Olympic dream is what they have longed for and fought for. And as we watch these athletes, in awe and with great respect, we are welcomed into their dream come true. They have arrived at the 2012 Olympics.

Arrival - A MOMENT of MOMENTS is something we long for as we journey - whatever our course, and yet truly - we don't REALLY ever arrive. Did I just hear a bubble pop? Nah. I'm not telling you anything you don't already realize. Sure we reach a point on our destination, but once we get there, don't we have to move once again? Right? I mean, ARRIVING, as some of us speak of ARRIVING... does not insure rest. We never fully rest, no matter what place we reach. We must continue forward, or determine our downward climb, if that is our choice.   The "I have arrived" idea casts a vision for the end to struggle.. And it's wrong. Struggle will continue; it will just be a different one.

So - where am I goin' with all this???.I'm learning about patience. We who believe in THE PATIENT GOD are called to imitate Him, and frankly (love that word...I'll say it again) FRANKLY, I am not patient. If you are a momma like me, then maybe you have repeated a lesson on "love one another" this summer more often than you would have liked to. And if you are like me, your love and patience glow is not being reflected as brilliantly as it was the first day of vacation.

I was tenderly reminded as I studied patience this week , that God is patient with my babes, and He has been patient with me much longer than He has been patient with them. I have not arrived at who God knows I am able to be, and as much as I think I have learned or completed in crushing my old ways - I am still far from the image of Christ. Why do I expect my children to be more than I am capable of being?

The amazing idea for me, is that God is patient - in part - because He sees the end result with as much clarity and familiarity as the starting point. He knows - actually sees - AND - even better than that - IS - the beginning and the end. Revelation 22:12. He endures the training highs and lows with us and always sees the end result. He does not have to worry or wonder if we'll get there; cross his fingers, hope and pray, - HE SEES the moment of arrival! He authored it! IT WILL HAPPEN!

If our GOD can be patient then, for what He has purposed to be in us -  in our children - then shouldn't we be able to fully trust Him, and RELAX a bit in the learning? And I just don't mean relax in our own learning - I mean be patient in our children's learning, and be patient in our friend's learning!

 Consider with me.Hebrews 12:2 - "Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame and sat down at the right hand of God." Jesus is the author and perfecter of faith. When we are frustrated with our babes, with our friends, with others in general - isn't our impatience then directed toward Christ? I mean, really? Who is the one who opens the eyes of the blind? Who is the one who gives us understanding? I know for certain it was not me - it is not EVER me - who brings to my mind and heart the understanding of God's Word.

As desperate as I am for my children to understand what it means to love one another well - to be patient with one another throughout the day,  they are also desperate for me to get it with them. Are they not? Absolutely - they just don't realize it - yet.(Patience, Babes. Momma's learning.) But God - our Faith Author does - and I am trusting Him to teach us all in such a way to endear our hearts to Him and to one another. Grateful to see His story unfolding! Grateful to know it will have a beautiful ending that will blow my mind.

So for today - I will look to Jesus - who endured so much more than I will EVER endure in today's sibling battles for the comfy chair, the remote, to go first...etc. etc. etc. JOY is assured. Our Patient God sees the moment of completion for all of us - and when I look to Him... I will see it too.

"LOOK I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what they have done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End." Revelation 22:12

And REAAALLY, when you think about this verse, - the impatience we experience is born out of the expectation for arrival that NO ONE will never know in this lifetime. Jesus is the only one who will ARRIVE, and in so doing - HE will bring all of us to completion. I can't wait to witness this with you! Can you even imagine? We can make it. See it with me - today - and every day. Remind me. The day is coming, and because it is we can live in patience for it - trusting our Patient God who promised it.

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12 - for us all.